Hello my angels,
I’m now in hospice and feeling 100 times better than in the hospital. My stay at the Foothills was rather traumatic, and I’m so blessed to have gotten into the hospice I wanted…and my health has much improved since coming here. They take amazing care of me and will walk with me as I begin my journey home…continuing the circle of life. I’m scared, but I trust that God, the divine will guide me to where I’m suppose to be. It’s so hard to let go, because I don’t want to die…but I have to accept the fact that this is God’s will…and let go. Big lesson to learn…I’m sitting here trying to let go…still growing, still learning.
We did our best to heal, to pray for a miracle - a divine healing. However, we have a divine healing, it is just that the healing involves me leaving this world and onto the next. My husband was/is amazing and kept me alive with holistic measures. I’ve been alive much longer than the doctors expected and that in itself is a gift. I encourage many to seek alternative treatments, because they DO WORK.
This may be one of the last entries I write as I’m getting weak and things like hanging out on line are becoming difficult. I would rather spend my time resting and just BEING with my family and close friends. I wanted to take a moment and thank everyone for your love and support. It has been divine in so many ways, there are no words to describe how I feel about all of you - family, friends, strangers…you are all amazing people with huge hearts…big souls…THANK YOU FOR BEING SO AMAZING.
Some of the lessons I’ve learned through this journey is that LOVE is the answer to everything. No matter what situation you find yourself in, as yourself…if I were LOVE, what would I do? Fighting with a spouse…be loving, kind, understanding…communicate. I ask that you all volunteer. One of my regrets is that when I look back, I never did much volunteering. I was too tired, too busy, too this, too that. I mean, I was giving and with in my own world I volunteered by being a good friend, good family member, blah, blah, blah, but I wish I gave back more.
Also, I ask that in lieu of flowers or gifts, please donate to hospice care. Many don’t know about hospice care, but it is a vital part of the dying process and has been a gift. It’s better than the hospital…the care is over the moon. The nurses are amazing, the volunteers are glowing - willing to do anything for you at the drop of a hat. Please donate. Please volunteer. PLEASE put your family first!! At the end of the day, when it is all said and done, the only place I wanna be is with my family and those I hold closest to my heart. I don’t give a shit about clothes, entertainment, making a million dollars, working 80 hours a week…I don’t care about the consumerism, materialism…I just wanna BE…just BE.
Love and Light,
Crystal