Funny Conversations…

October 7, 2007 by Chrissy.

…if only I knew that a conversation I had once with Tony would carry into the future to become a reality.

Tony and I were living in Costa Rica, and the mole on my eyelid started to darken and get bigger. It was also starting to cause some “gooping” in the mornings and made it hard for me to wear contacts. We were discussing the option of forfeiting my ticket home, but Tony suggested I go back and get the mole checked out - just in case.

I sat on the bed and stared at him for a moment. I’m not usually emotional, but tears welled up in my eyes. I looked at him and said, “what if the mole is cancer and they have to remove my right eye?” Tony started to laugh and stated, “that’s the most ridiculous thing I’ve ever heard”. And we both started to laugh.

Turns out, that conversation turned into reality later that year. I returned home, one doctor led to the next, which led to the next and removing my right eye was a very real option. Thankfully, I had three talented surgeons who all fought hard to save my right eye…and I was cancer free by December 2005…or so we thought.

No one knows when the cancer came back. It could have been the day they stitched me up from my final plastic surgery…or maybe it reappeared the day I became pregnant - hormones started to rage as my body started to “shake and bake” a new human life.

And…I recall years ago when Tony and I were younger and first started to date. We were discussing things we “wouldn’t be able to handle”. Being young and vein, the first topic was disfigurement. We both echoed that neither of us would be able to handle any scaring or disfigurement of the face (few years later, I faced that reality…and found the strength to deal with disfigurement if that’s what was going to be). The next topic was watching a loved one wilt away of a terrible disease…and here we find ourselves in a reality that was once documented as one of our biggest fears.

One good thing has come of this, I won’t have to wear a pirate patch. That bridge has come and gone. I’m happy that I still have my two eyes…that’s vanity for yeah!

Funny conversations.

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