It’s Been Awhile…

September 3, 2007 by Chrissy.

Hello everyone,

Finally I’ve found a moment to get online and update everyone on what’s been happening in my life. I apologize that it’s taken this long to post a simple message, but I don’t have many hours in the day…and I choose to spend them focused on healing, spending time with my daughter and husband. I also get tired easily…so that does not leave a lot of time to be surfing the net, emailing and blogging.

However, I plan to make more of an effort to keep in touch and keep all of you updated. I’m aware that many of you are eager to hear how things are going, so I promise to do better. With ALL the love and support and prayers I get from you, the least I can do is keep you up to date on my healing…and healing I am!

Our trip to Toronto was tainted by a minor trip to the hospital the week of August 23…I ended up getting a blood transfusion as my red blood cells plummeted, I had a fever of 40.1, my heart rate was 130 at rest and my blood pressure was really low. Of coure, the doctors don’t have any answers as to why…”it’s the cancer”. That’s all they say…then look to me for the answers. Strange.

Anyhoo, after three days in the hospital, I was given the release and told I was OK to fly…and so despite being scare and leaving my comfort zone, I boarded the plane and have been resting in Kingston, Ontario for the past week.

It’s been quiet. Just what I needed to be honest. My life the past month and a half has been nothing short of a “gong show”. A good “gong show”, but “gong show” nonetheless. It got to the point where I had no time for me, for my daughter, for my husband. Our life was too busy trying to find healers, chinese herbs, researching this…researching that…having vistors…doctors appointments…it was all too much.

Here, I’ve got nothing much to do but focus on healing and spending time with Mattea. I’m recovering well…I’m getting off the steroid which is a huge thing. My pain over the past three days has been tolerable…and I’m walking around the house without the use of my cane or walker. I have more energy…sleeping better at night…and my appetite is still hardy, which is great as well. The strange throbbing headaches have stopped, a tumor in my breast has disappeared, and the last CAT scan I got showed that the tumors in behind my eye (in the bone) have not grown since June 28. Again, good news.

I feel like my body is beginning to renew itself. I’m doing better now than I have in MONTHS. This is great…because technically, I should be getting worse, but I’m not. That’s because I’m HEALING. My tumors are shinking. The cancer is leaving my body and new vibrant healthy “full of life” cells are replacing the cancer…and my body is healing itself.

God gave us the tools…built our bodies to renew. I firmly believe that. I’m meeting people because of divine intervention who have the “know how” to unlock the healing power within myself…and I’m learning on my own as well:

Positive thinking
Biofeed back
Choosing my words carefully…”I’m healing,” “Thank you for my healing,” I’m cancer free,” ” Cancer is no longer a part of my life,” “I’m healed,” “I accept healthy living now,”
Healers
Chinese herbs
Juicing
Eating healthy foods
Prayer
Meditation

The only thing that frustrates me now is the sweats (grrrrrr) and the fact that I’m unable to carry Mattea. That makes me sad…but I’m there for her as much as possible. Oh yeah, and the Morphine. That shits powerful stuff…and I can’t wait until I no longer need it for pain management. It inhibits so much…my short term memory, my spelling, I can’t find the words for simple things, I get high all of a sudden (which can be fun at times). These are the rocks that I carry and hope to toss off a cliff one day soon.

I guess it’s time to log off. I’m hungry and a tasty lasagna waiting for me upstairs.

I think of you often. I’m overwhelmed by your love and support. Together, we can make me Calgary’s first melanoma patient to live and give my oncologist something to brag about….and not too mention, renew a little faith in all of us.

Love ALL Ways,

Crystal

PS: The morphine messes with my ability to write…to I hope this makes sense and there’s not too many spelling errors…as for grammar errors, whatever…I know the rules, but too lazy to apply them. After all, I’m a public relations major…writing used to be a big part of my life.

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